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What is a Black Hole?

A black hole is a place in space where gravity pulls so much that even light can not get out. The gravity is so strong because matter has been squeezed into a tiny space. This can happen when a star is dying.

Because no light can get out, people can’t see black holes. They are invisible. Space telescopes with special tools can help find black holes. The special tools can see how stars that are very close to black holes act differently than other stars.

Consciousness energy falls within the realm of quantum energy.  When consciousness interacts with physical energy, the physical is effected and the effects can be felt by other consciousnesses interacting.  The physical effects can also effect physical matter which is a denser portion of physical energy.  

One of the ways to interact with the physical is to put ones attention on it, ie put the attention of your consciousness on it, which exists outside of the physical energy field, and communicate a thought.  The thought comes from your consciousness outside of the physical and creates an effect on the physical energy where your attention is.  This can be done to communicate in the physical or to effect physical matter.  This type of communication is detectable by anyone listening via the physical, and so the physical can be used as a shared mind.

If your attention stays on the physical in order to effect it, communicate within it, you can lose awareness of your actual self, which exists outside of physical as a person made of energy other than physical energy.  The physical experience the becomes like a dream because you are creating the experience with your consciousness, your actual mind.  Since your awareness is looking at the physical effects of it, you begin to perceive the physical effects and communications as your thoughts, hence your mind.

Where do black holes fit into this?  The perceived ‘thoughts’ in the physical are communications from other consciousnesses or your own that exist outside of the physical,  these thoughts are moving energy in the physical.  E=MC^2 in the physical.  So these ‘thoughts’, which are really communication from your consciousness outside of the physical (or the physical effects your actual thoughts have when ‘speaking’ into physical energy), are now energy.  This energy has mass.  If you add to the thought, similar thoughts, or concentrate on the same idea or thought, the effects on the physical grow energetically, therefore in mass.  This mass has a gravitational attraction.  The stronger a thought grows, the more attractive it gets in the sense that a gravity well is building around it.

If another consciousness comes along with his/ her awareness on the physical, he/she will feel a pull in their ‘physical mind’, which is what they are perceiving the effects of in the physical, toward that energy.  That energy will cause whatever ‘thoughts’ they have that resonate with that energy (or frequency), to come forth to their awareness.  It may not be the same thought, just one that aligns with that energy.  An example would be a lot of attention put into and exciting idea for one person.  That person, with their awareness in the physical, is feeling the physical effects of their ‘thoughts’ in the physical.  The effect feels like excitement to them.  They perceive a physical sensation that they define as excitement.  Originally, this definition may have come about because their actual self outside of the physical was excited.  But if they’ve lost awareness of their actual self, they could have remapped the physical sensation of excitement to thoughts that are no longer exciting to their actual self.  But is is currently defined as their idea of excitement.  Another person (and by this, I mean a consciousness with their attention on the physical so they are only aware of that) come along and feel that energy.  They may have defined this energy as anger.  So angry ‘thoughts’ are triggered.

They angry person’s attention may move on because they don’t like to feel anger.  So the gravity well will tend to attract people who like that energy and identify it with excitement or a related definition.  This energy then grows and attracts more attention.  This is the basic behavior going on with the interaction of consciousness, or the mind of a non-physical being, with the physical so that the being then becomes a physical one.


excessive or erotic interest in oneself and one’s physical appearance.

synonyms: vanity, self-love, self-admiration, self-absorption, self-obsession, conceit, self-centeredness, self-regard, egotism, egoism

“his emotional development was hindered by his mother’s narcissism”


extreme selfishness, with a grandiose view of one’s own talents and a craving for admiration, as characterizing a personality type.


self-centeredness arising from failure to distinguish the self from external objects, either in very young babies or as a feature of mental disorder.

A consciousness which forms narcissistic tendencies is so attentive to his or herself, that they cannot see anyone else.  They only relate to others as the others effect them.  So someone sitting outside of the physical, completely focussed in the physical, as in a dream state, is looking at the physical effects of their consciousness (or real mind) on the physical and nothing else.  They are staring at the energetic effects of themselves in the physical.  If someone else’s attention comes along, and that is all we are in the physical, just attention effecting matter, they only see how their ‘energy’ (their energetic effect) is effected by the others attention.  They do not perceive the energetic effect of the other person as themselves.  Only how they are effected by it.  So they are only looking at their own manifested energy.  

A person in this state only thinks about themselves, their own thoughts and the effects of their ‘thoughts’.  I put ‘thoughts’ in quotes because these are what we know as thoughts, but they are not actual thought.  They appear in what seems to be our ‘mind’, but it is not our actual mind.  We need new words to describe them so that thought can be correctly redefined to mean our thoughts we have within our non-physical mind, and mind can be correctly redefined to mean the physical energy of space (the physical universe).   As they dwell upon themselves, their attention becomes truncated so they only perceive a smaller and smaller region around their attention.  The gravitational attraction grows from their attention and they are pulled in this direction.  Pulled means the ‘thoughts’ that come up are related only to themselves and how space feels around them.  Their awareness shrinks.  The become dense.  No one else is interested in joining them in thinking only about themself.  They become a dense energetic local spot of awareness which is looking at itself.  Like a black hole.  At the event horizon, the light is bent so that none radiates outward, instead, it encircles the dense region,  this light is their awareness.  It circles back so that they only see themselves, or the effects in the physical of their consciousness mind.  When they lose awareness, they are the equivalent of sucked into the dark of the black hole.  Losing awareness means losing awareness of the physical.  They may be returned to their mind in the non-physical.

Just a side note.  Death only applies in the physical.  Death means your attention is finally pulled from the physical back to the non-physical where you actually exist.  We should be able to do this voluntarily, but do not because we think our physical sensations are ourselves.  We think matter is real, and non-physical is not.  What we see with our eyes seems so solid and real, but it is just a denser level of energy in the physical.  It requires intense focus and complete loss of awareness of our actual selves. We could have less dense presences or ‘bodies’ and retain some awareness of our actual, real bodies in the non-physical, but we currently don’t.  Our actual thoughts can be detected, but they feel ethereal, non-physica, and therefore ‘not real.  All we have done is re-defined what is real so that we are terrified of letting go.  We can use mindfulness to remap our definitions to a corrected, less insane version and find our way back home.


Watercolor: Ocean View


Practice with skies and perspective.

Movie Review:  Lady in the Water


Lady in the Water is a 2006 American fantasy thriller film written and directed by M. Night Shyamalan and starring Paul Giamatti and Bryce Dallas Howard. The film’s plot concerns a Philadelphia maintenance man who discovers a young woman in the swimming pool of his apartment complex. Gradually, he and his neighbors learn that she is a water nymph whose life is in danger from a vicious, wolf-like, mystical creature that tries to keep her from returning to her watery “blue world”.  

From http://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Lady_in_the_Water

This was an interesting mythological fantasy type of story based on real ideas.  The movie began by describing the background of the myth, which is a bed time story in the homeland of one of the characters.  The myth is based on the idea that mankind was once in communication with people who lived in the water.  This communication kept them in communion with life and Earth, and kept them at peace.  With time, mankind put their attention on their own dramas and distractions of civilization and stopped listening. The water people kept trying to communicate, but mankind fell asleep and forgot there was anyone to listen to.

The ideas presented here that correspond to our world and reality are that there are people who are trying to communicate with humanity, but humanity fell asleep, forgot they exist and forgot how to listen.  Some people channel these ‘others’ trying to communicate.  It’s difficult for anyone not human to communicate with a human because we can only relate to communications that fall within our belief systems.  So information has to be presented incrementally, beliefs modified slowly, until more effective communication is possible.

The water can be symbolic for life outside of human form and the human belief system developed by the human experience.  We got lost in the human experience, human dramas, stories we created with our civilizations.  We are so out of sync with people who do not subscribe to the belief system of humanity, that we believe humanity is it.  That this Earth is our ‘home’, that the physical, astronomical systems we see when we look up are reality, and that reality can only be experienced as a human life.  That consciousness developed here.  That the physical is what we see with our eyes and feel with our hands, and whe we ‘die’, we are either waiting to be reborn to continue living, or stop living and float in the nirvana of Heaven or torment of hell.

Another idea presented in the movie was that people are drawn together without being aware of it.  They each have a role to play, a contribution to make, but they don’t know who they are.  They are acting in an unaware state.  This parallels the concept of our soul plan which unfolds whether our minds are aware of it or not.  Soul plan just means that our actual selves, who are dreaming in this physicality, have a desire at spirit level, and that desire, as in law of attraction, plays out.  We are the souls.  Our minds are creating the dream.  In the dream, we are not paying attention to the desires of our spirit.   So we act out of unawareness, drawn to things, people or places, to fulfill our desires.

Mindfulness can help with discovering the yearning of our spirit and what we are attracting into our lives.  And with discovering who we are by paying very close attention to our own communication with ourselves.  If we do this, then we might hear also, the communications of the ‘others’.

Lion in Oil Pastel

I’m a beginner exploring oil pastels.  They are tougher to blend than watercolor and a bit like drawing with crayons.  I like that you can scrape off a layer to reveal the color underneath.  My current method of blending is with stick or finger.  For me, it isn’t as meditative as watercolor because of the effort required to blend.  There are better ways I will try in the future.

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