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Duality and the Split Mind

• The identity I project to the outer environment
• Who I want you to think I am
• The facade
• Ideal for the world

• How I feel
• Who I really am
• How I am an the inside
• Ideal for self

– Joe Dispenza, “Breaking the Habit of Being Yourself”

The mind is split between loyalty to the ego and yourself.  Your consciousness and the ego form the duality.  The ego is the you as you define yourself with a body, the I that you compare and contrast yourself against everything that is not yourself.  The ‘inner being’ that reflects your true self, or ‘higher self’, is the you that you feel when you look out at life while forgetting yourself.  To experience this version of yourself, you would be so absorbed in what you were paying attention to that you are focused on your experience of it rather than watching or feeling yourself experience it.  These two ways of experiencing yourself is the duality or split mind.

This split is referred to as the separation.  At some point in our existence, we decided to explore, ‘I’, and began perceiving life from the perspective of our own identity.  This need to define ourselves, contrast ourselves with all external things and beings is the source of the ego.  Our bodies enable us to perceive ourselves.  Without them, we would just experience without perceiving ourselves – we would just feel ourselves and explore who we are through interactions with others.  The others would perceive us based on their experience of us, but we would not be paying attention to how we appear.

Seeing ourselves via a body has led to a fascination with ourselves to the point where our existence is now defined by defining who we are.  Without bodies, or even with a body, but without perceiving via the ego, our existence would consist of experiencing interactions.  We would discover ourselves by discovering our preferences resulting from interacting.  With the ego, we are not exploring our true selves, we are trying to define ourselves, limiting ourselves by trying to fit ourselves into a pre-defined mold (like ‘I am a person who…’).  Without the ego, we would just say, ‘I like that’ or ‘I prefer something else’, not ‘I am that’.

Because of our focus through bodies, we are constantly in conflict between pleasing our ego, or need to define ourselves, and following our highest excitement that aligns with our true selves – the consciousness that perceives through the body.  Our minds are split between loyalty to one or the other.  Our deepest desires come from our souls, our true selves.  Our desires born of life in physicality which sees all as separate, considers only the ego, the ‘I’ you talk about as yourself to others.

This separation is only an illusion to enable us to experience the idea of being an isolated, completely autonomous being.  It is an illusion because our consciousness consists of energy that is connected to all life.  Consider that we live immersed in the conscious energy of God.  This alone connects us to an intelligence that is connected to all life.  Whether we perceive it in bodies or not, our consciousness shares thoughts and the energy of emotions with every interaction.  Our bodies die, but we live.  This illusion of separation and the bodies that make it possible gave us a new paradigm of mortality. Our souls know we are immortal.  Our ego knows we are mortal.  This is one of the primary conflicts that plays out in religion and is a source of fear.

Giving ourselves the illusion of separation makes us feel cut off from God, Source, the communion with life, the communion with the true selves of every person we interact with.  All emotions stem from this conflict with the exception of love.  We cannot experience real love until we shed our ego selves.  We come closest to this with the experience of having children and loving them without thinking of ourselves at all.

The goal of mindfulness is to return to a recognition that we are not our bodies.  That our minds are the source of how we feel.  That our minds are only sane if we think as beings that are bodiless, but are just using bodies to perceive physicality, not to define ourselves.  To do this we need to interact with our attention fully on whomever we are interacting with so that we are not aware of ourselves – how we appear, who we are in comparison, etc.

To become our true selves, we must essentially ascend from the perception of ourselves as individuals separated via bodies.  We must stop identifying ourselves.  We must let go and follow our hearts, our souls.  This is very difficult to do if you are enjoying life here with your current identity.  That is why a rich man finds it impossible to get into heaven and why so few people become ‘enlightened’.  Letting go of identification seems like letting go of a distinction of yourself as compared to others.  But there are people living among us without ego identification that are unique individuals as examples of how we don’t lose a sense of ourselves.  We gain a love of ourselves because we are finally living according to our preferences, without judgement and with love.  It is interesting to ask someone who does not identify with the body, ‘who are you?’.

Some quotes:

“The ego justifies this on the grounds that it makes you seem “better” than they are, thus obscuring your equality with them still further.”

“Do not allow the body to be a mirror of a split mind. Do not let it be an image of your own perception of littleness. Do not let it reflect your decision to attack.”

‘You dream of a separated ego and believe in a world that rests upon it. This is very real to you. You cannot undo it by not changing your mind about it.’

“The separation is merely another term for a split mind.”

“It is solely a device of the ego to make you feel different from your brothers and separated from them. The ego justifies this on the grounds that it makes you seem “better” than they are, thus obscuring your equality with them still further.”

“Do not allow the body to be a mirror of a split mind. Do not let it be an image of your own perception of littleness. Do not let it reflect your decision to attack.”

“A split mind is endangered, and the recognition that it encompasses completely opposed thoughts within itself is intolerable. Therefore the mind projects the split, not the reality. Everything you perceive as the outside world is merely your attempt to maintain your ego identification, for everyone believes that identification is salvation. Yet consider what has happened, for thoughts do have consequences to the thinker. You have become at odds with the world as you perceive it, because you think it is antagonistic to you. This is a necessary consequence of what you have done. You have projected outward what is antagonistic to what is inward, and therefore you would have to perceive it this way. That is why you must realize that your hatred is in your mind and not outside it before you can get rid of it; and why you must get rid of it before you can perceive the world as it really is.”

“God gave you the real world in exchange for the one you made out of your split mind, and which is the symbol of death. For if you could really separate yourself from the Mind of God you would die.”

“You cannot trust your own love when you attack it. You cannot learn of perfect love with a split mind, because a split mind has made itself a poor learner. You tried to make the separation eternal, because you wanted to retain the characteristics of creation, but with your own content. Yet creation is not of you, and poor learners do need special teaching.”

“In a split mind, identity must seem to be divided. Nor can anyone perceive a function unified which has conflicting purposes and different ends. Correction, to a mind so split, must be a way to punish sins you think are yours in someone else. And thus does he become your victim, not your brother, different from you in that he is more guilty, thus in need of your correction, as the one more innocent than he. This splits his function off from yours, and gives you both a different role. And so you cannot be perceived as one, and with a single function that would mean a shared identity with but one end.”

“Until the “separation,” which is the meaning of the “fall,” nothing was lacking.”

“A sense of separation from God is the only lack you really need correct. This sense of separation would never have arisen if you had not distorted your perception of truth, and had thus perceived yourself as lacking. The idea of order of needs arose because, having made this fundamental error, you had already fragmented yourself into levels with different needs.”

Separation = a detour into fear



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